In the beginning…

I just joined a new Bible Study group. This is a first for me.

I went to church for many years.
Then I didn’t.
Now I find myself somewhere in between.

It’s safe to say though I’m almost 39 I am still a beginner in my spiritual learning. I’ve always held a deep faith and belief in God yet still have lots of questions. It feels like a restlessness in reconciling my heart and my mind that gets in my way. So, at this time in my life I find myself called to gain some deeper understanding.

We are studying the Book of Genesis this week and as a former English major, studying a text in this way is actually thrilling and fascinating. My brain and heart are swirling but in a very good way. My husband is getting a kick out of me looking like a college student again at my kitchen table studying on a Tuesday evening, and having endless deep thought questions at crazy hours of the night.

For those of you interested, this is the book study we are using:

Some days, I struggle with all I am taking in. I struggle with what I see as “truth.” But today, I stumbled across these vacation photos just after coming home from my study group.

And I realized this.

There are a lot of things I don’t know. And, I will never know everything (though sometimes I may pretend I do.)

But what I do know is that in moments like this, witnessing my husband and youngest son together watching a sunset that I can only see as a pure miracle of creation, I am certain a loving and amazing God exists.

And he is good. Pure love, pure light and and pure goodness.

Thank you Rebekah Trevelise of TrevAthlete for your friendship and support. Some people are placed in our lives for a reason. I am so very grateful for your gentle presence in connecting me with this amazing group of women of faith. You inspire me each day by the way you live life so beautifully and authentically.


  1. Paul Hollabaugh says:

    I realize you wrote this over 18 months ago; however, I am just now reading your wonderful post. When you wrote about seeing a miracle of creation, I thought of Psalm 19:1-4. This is from the New English translation. ” The heavens declare the glory of God; the sky displays his handiwork. Day after day it speaks out; night after night it reveals his greatness. There is no actual speech or word, nor is its voice literally heard. Yet its voice echoes throughout the earth; its words carry to the distant horizon. (Psalms 19:1-4, NET). Creation testifies of The Creator.

  2. admin says:

    Paul – thank you for this passage, and for reminding me to go back and re-read my own stuff. Beautiful remembrance in the lines you shared of what magic surrounds us daily if we choose to set our sights on that greatness. Happy Holidays to you!

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